Baffled King composing Hallelujah.

I'm completely in love with the song "Hallelujah" right now by Leonard Cohen.

Well I heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do ya?
Well it goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

Well Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
she tied you to her kitchen chair
And she broke your throne and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

Well baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew ya
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

Well there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me do you?
And remember when I moved in you?
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

Well maybe there's a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who'd OUT DREW YA
And it's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen in the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
Hallelujah

Sound familiar? It's the story of King David. Also, it's probably one of the most beautiful songs ever written. I was writing a bio for myself for a magazine I'm writing for last night, and one of the questions was "who is your favorite Bible character?" I love David. The story is amazing. No author can come up with this. Everything from his start conquering Goliath to the Psalms...I love it. I relate to him as he writes what we all really think in Psalms. On the days I feel like a walking, talking disaster, I feel like David. As a writer, I envy his talent with words. That's a God-given talent. When you read them, you know He's here. You just know.

My favorite verse in this song is "the baffled king composing hallelujah" because that's how I feel on any given day. I'm confused. I don't know why I've been called to journalism when other little CoC girls are called to nursing, education and things like that. But, whatever I write, whatever words I pull together...I want them to be hallelujah. I want the final product to scream of His glory. I want those 750 words to be God-filled, God-inspired and God-glorifying. I want my final composition to be a shout of praise, thanksgiving or even a cry out to Him. I want Him to use my brokenness, awkwardness and clumsiness to work for Him.

Hallelujah.